Death

Death is a common occurrence in my life this year. First my Dad, then my Aunt's husband. I just don't know what it's doing to me.

I seem to think that all is well is with me. I recognize the ability to use the circumstances as an excuse and I think I want to avoiud doing that. I have to wonder if, as a result, I am not grieving as much as I need to. I don't know.

I feel alot of distress but I don't seem to be able to get a grip on it. I know that I have benn suffering at work (aside from all the missed time). I have a head full of cobwebs. That's the description that comes to mind.

Should I see a shrink? I think that's not a bad idea. I had pretty much decided to do that last year but never got around to it. The cost is a factor.

"I'm drinking that whiskey out of a glass and if that ain't country, boys you can kiss my ass" Hank Williams III. My current favorite.

Time for another beer.